Symptoms

Ok, so i am not sure now if i really have preggies symptoms or if it's just my mind fucking with me again. I feel SUPA EMO (emotional) all the time. Sometimes i love the people around me and other times i cannot even stand their smell and i want them to leave me alone!!! But i can't be mean and say "thank you for your support in my time of loneliness but could you leave now"... That would make me a bitch no?

Actually, all i want to do right now is stay home, eat all day and sleep. That's really what i want, but there are so many things to think about.

THINGS THAT CONSUME MY MIND:

1. I really have to start saving money for this child.
2. I want a girl but i know i will probably get a boy... damn it!!
3. When am i going to start showing?
4. How am i going to tell my ex boyfriend (the cracker), it's really only been two months since our break up.
5. How do i deal with my family, what do i say to them when they ask me who the father is?
6. I want to buy a high tech baby transporter... none of this cheap shit that is more of an inconvenience than anything. I have to be able to go hiking with my baby.
7. What am i going to name my baby, i don't want it to have an english name at all, and it will have my surname.
8. Oh my gosh i am hungry, i need to eat.
9. Uh... i beg your pardon? i didn't get that.
10. Why am i XTREMELY SAD then XTREMELY HAPPY? how do i control these feelings?
11. Money money, money, money.
12. Where will i stay when i am on maternity leave?
13. Will my job keep me on or am i going to be jobless?
14. Oh my goodness i am hungry... oh shit, now i feel sick... DAMNIT!!!!!